A Lost Treasure

Oh God!A little bad time .Life's is really unpreditable.I shouldnot say this again after having a good experience of it two years back but still.............What I feel that friends are the great treasure that you have in your life and I always take care of my friendships delicately.But in last few days two of my very good friends shifted to some other parts of India and my childhood friend expired on 3 june.This blow was quiet a big for me ,once again.We were friends since 1984,we had played together ,stayed together and even now we were very close to each other.One fine morning she got burnt and few days later she died.Once again I was in deep thoughts ,thinking so many things ,not able to concentrate during meditation ,feeling so low .So finally got up yesterday ,went out for shopping ,a good workout in the morning today and back to my yoga classes.Really you have to pull out yourself from all these blackholes.Best way is to pamper yourself a lot and thanks to my parents who take care of all these things .Apart from that God has given me an ANGEL to take care of and love her.Some person(I wouldnot like to name that person here) had once told me to leave that beautiful ANGEL ,who is nobody else but my daughter, in an orphange or any railway station so that whosoever needs her can take her from there, had actually given me so much strength that I stood up with this spirit that I cant throw my daughter anywhere and nobody should dare think about it even.Rather I would whole heartedly thank that person now for helping me becoming a very good mother to my child.May God bless that person.The mother daughter bond we share is wonderful.We understand each other so well that we really neednot to speak at times to express our emotions.But here I would like to thank all my friends apart from God and parents for helping me in those troubled times .They all were standing like pillars around me at that time and they actually protected me from everything that was coming on my way.My sincere thanks to all those phone calls,personal visits ,orkut scraps and mails that have helped me from breaking down.

My Little Mermaid

Its been more than two weeks that me and vanu get up at 5.00 am and leave home by 6o'clock for an adventure everyday and that's swimming.My daughter's everyday's breakfast is boiled egg for last five years and I prefer taking cornflakes and egg white . I find swimming as a very good exercise and my little one is very comfortable with the water right from the first day of joining .There is no water fear and she swims like a mermaid.Its just really beyond description .So coolly and comfortably she swims and enjoys water,though she cant swim for long stretches but no doubt she tries hard.I can very well understand this because she is just six years old ,obviously not that big to go from one end of the pool to another end in one go.

In the pool I have met a person who brings his daughter everyday for swimming classes .His daughter is almost Vanya's age and they are South Indians.We stared talking to each other slowly and found that life is not that easy for everyone.He told me that his wife was a serious case of depression and one day when he was away to his office this lady commited suicide and at that time this little girl was few months old.Neighbours informed him in his office about her death when they heard child screaming .I could see tears in his eyes while talking to me and repeadly telling me that she was taking treatment from a very good doctor but nothing worked.After that his life changed .......people or should I say so called relatives moved away from him as nobody wanted to take responsibility of the child and they were left alone .But sometimes such situations make you real tough and he decided to manage his job and child simultaneously and look that child is almost six ,healthy ,active and really sweet.He prepares her breakfast and lunch sends her to school and then she goes to day care and in the evening he picks her up .Both of them take dinner together and sleep to start a new day .I must say that girl is always beautifully dressed up with her long hair properly tied up by her father.
But I feel single parenthood is a very common concept in Delhi these days and no doubt when people find you working hard with your child ,they respect you.One of my very good friends used to tell me in my troubled times that once you get out of this tougher period you'll become a 24 carat gold.She was really right because when I look back I really find I have actually become a better human being and even a better mother .Everything in my life has a proper direction and I hardly bother about anything else.If something tries to trouble me and my family ,I simply cut that thing out of our lives.No U -turns now.Whatever I deicide I go for it ,that strong I'm now.I really don't need anyone's permission now but yes ,I always discuss everything with my parents and take their guidance at every point.Life is like that.You must not plan for long times.Its just one day that you have to live and never look back .Be strong to face anything that comes up.That's the strategy of a comfortable life.And must stay away from sick people who instead of giving you a push ,try to pull you down.That's the Mantra of my life now ,therefore I'm enjoying it at the fullest.

Vanya's first tooth about to break

What a day today,I was cleaning up the house and heard Vanya crying.I ran towards her .She was standing in front of mirror crying loudly.I asked her what happened,sobbing she showed me her lower jaw and that tinny -minny tooth moving and bleeding.She was loud that's why whatever I was trying to explain her wasn't going into her head.Finally after efforts of 10-15 minutes by everybody she started listening to us .So with this the process of explaination started .We all stared her giving some tips like now she should stop thumb sucking,should not move it too much,should not put he tongue on it ,,,this and that and like a good listener she was taking all those tips ,seriously.That was something really surprising for me because she is really ,really really very naughty ,cant sit at one place for more that a minute and the seriousness that she was showing was beyond my imagination.Now lets see what changes does this new tooth ,when it comes brings in her.But to be very frank,I really dont want her to grow up so fast.We both are enjoying life like anything these days and thats because she is so naughty and innocent.

Superman and Mougli

Wow ,these days its summer vacations in Delhi schools , my daughter is at home and we both are enjoying life at the fullest .So,we both sit and watch cartoons together these days.Earlier it was my husband who used to get this pleasure.Sometimes I used to be busy with cooking or some other household work and my husband used to watch Tom and Jerry with my daughter in his lap and I could hear both of them laughing loudly and clapping.Even those days ,I wont say I missed something ,I used to like their giggles and claps while working in kitchen but now even I get chance to watch cartoons with my little one..........................
So it was superman that had impressed Vanya few days back.She used to tie her towel around her neck and jump here and there in the house and now its Mougli. We put up an alarm for 5.30pm everyday to watch Mougli on Pogo channel.We both sit together for tea/mik and watch it seriously that how mougli is trying to be a good wolf,inspite of being a human child.And its not only me and vanya who watch this cartoon,its everybody in the family Papa,mummy and Bobbyas well.We all sit together,eat together,enjoy together.I really find intresting to see my mummy watching cartoons ,she had never done this earlier.But this is what a grandparenthood is........................But this cartoon has created another problem for me and that is my daughter has started copying Mougli in everything .She jumps on the top of the curtain and then slips down like an animal,i cant help .I see her enjoying but Im always there to check her actions .What I feel this is the best time in life to enjoy everything and girls grow up faster and get quieter quickly,so I dont mind her doing all this stuff provided things are in safer range.Really relations are very difficult to maintain and its individuals duty to take care of what role is to be played at what time carefully.When I have to be a daughter I'm a good daughter ,when I have to be mother I'm a good mother and when its friend I'm a good friend.

Cursive handwriting

My daughter has recently won English cursive handwritng competetion .As expected,any mother would be happy and so am I .I remember last year when she had started learning cursive handwriting,I got the book for myself and learnt it properly so that I could teach her and finally SHE did it and Im also perfect in that now.Now Im learning hindi language for her so that I can teach her that properly as she is not very interested in studying that subject.But motherhood is a wonderful experience.To my surprise I have learnt so many things just to make her perfect in that.I still remember I used to tell my husband that he would have to teach her how to draw straight line because I couldnot make a straight line even with scale and my husband is perfect with paintings .But look today I can draw a straight line very well and can make very good pictures in her copies.Its just the determination that can take you to the top of the mountain and you would not need any help fot that....................
Really Its Enoyable........................
At the bottom of my heart I feel bad for the person who's missing all that

Crayons....................................

Really wanted to write this for my future memories.....................
Today when my daughter came back from her school ,I checked her bag as usual and I was surprised to see that the crayons that I had got for her yesterday were all broken.Behaving normally ,I simply asked her that who broke her crayons and to my surprise her answer was "Vanya"and she looked so happy telling me her name.I was like what to say,what to ask,yesterday only I had bought them,but its all gone................Then slowly I asked her ,"Why did you break them?"She replied sweetly"Mummy,my friend's crayons box had 20 colors and my box had 15 ,so I broke all the colors in two pieces,so now the number is 30.The stress that she had put on word "thirty" made it very clear to me that how concerned she was for numbers.But Im happy that she is learning simple maths with these tricks.And that gives me the great feeling.She is the same girl who had become extremely silent and dumb one and half years back and I used to cry to see her ,but now she is a typical "Girl" who can speak for hours at strech.Thanks to God and everyone around me for giving me all that support at the time of need.

Wonderful life................

I had never thought that life could be so beautiful.Looking back,terrible time,nothing but a big black hole and finally I am able to pull out myself and everybody in my family out of it and Im really happy about it.Thanks to God for giving me that strength and thankfully things are very well in track.I enjoy life at the fullest now and I make sure everyone in family whether its my daughter ,my parents or my brother everyone should be able to live happily.A perfect balance is needed in life and I am able to achieve that now.I pay all the required attention to my little one ,drop her to school ,pick her up,help her with her homework and play with her her park everydayand for sure weekends ,we all go out ,to have fun.Very well planned,two movies in a month ,generally going to fun rebublic,having food at haldiram's or mac donald's.My gym regularly,then my yoga classes,40 min brisk walk.I make it sure to give full time to myself along with being commited towards family.
I have started reading novels also these days.I was a short stories person and used to watch my papa in law reading big,thick novels and used to ask him often that how did he maintain patience till the end of novel but now I understand that very well.......I have read so many novels now that almost addicted to them and really time flies once you start.Apart from that I do read very short stories to be told to my little one everyday.Thats also fun.She relates every story with her daily life experiences.
Sometimes I feel these days that the time just flies off.and I must say yoga and meditation has helped me achieving full control over my mind and I know my aim clearly and am heading towards it.................
Thanks God for all your great givings to me.
In all this,when I sit and think "Do I really want to go in past?"Does my daughter wants to see all that again?
Oops ,the problem is ,I should have time to think about all this ...........but really,I swear these things hardly come to my mind now because of being soooooooooo occupied.To some extent my daughter and brother have made my life so wonderful because when they talk you can actually feel that their world is so beautiful and colorful and so is mine now